Empty Spaces

What can you do when the person you love most in the entire world lives 2 hours away from you? see them every day? make the journey? well no because

1. I can't afford it,
2. I cant just ditch school,
3. Other people need me here

its just a school girl crush i hear you cry! but no.. this isn't love like that, this is family bonds, this is love with no end, unconditional love; meaning every letter. My beautiful little sister. The most beautiful, intelligent, inspiring, happy little one year old I've ever seen in my life! ok so im a little biased....... but i love her to pieces! and my world is incomplete without that beautiful grin and the way her eyes light up as you walk through the door. The way she surprises you with the new things she learns everyday, the way she just stares into your eyes as if she can see into everything you have ever thought and she truly cares, the way she gives you a little kiss and your heart just melts, she is the cutest thing in the world and how is it fair that whilst all my friends see their little brothers or sisters everyday i have to wait once a month, count the days and as soon as its there, its already gone, every time i see her she's a month older, a month wiser, a months more beautiful! Ask me any minute of any day for my thoughts and i can guarantee you they will always be the same, one person, the only person in my eyes

yeah so this is the soppiest thing i've ever written! and probably the soppiest thing you've ever read! but i dont care! if you hate it then you have no idea how it feels to want something so bad! something thats not material possessions.. i mean something you REALLY want! and you can never have... it's the fact you know you can never have it... that makes it worse.....

by the next time i see her she'll be walking..... but you may think that this is all so miserable.. so let me get to the point of this blog! You could call this the 'chip on my shoulder' (all LB fans will get this ;)) because whenever im in a whats-the-point mood i think i have to do it for her! for my sister! i have to make her proud!

So in conclusion little Olivia you complete my life and your a little super star and i only hope that one day you can be proud to say im your sister xxx

Dear John

Sooooo my friend came around at about 11 and i was still in my pj's oopsies :P we hung around upstairs for a bit on the lappy and then went out

it took ages to get to the cinema and then when we got there we had to run like mad to catch the film and only just made it. but there was still time for ben&jerrys :P yum yum

we watched the film and it was amazing! i totally recommend going to see it! but bring tissues! lol :P then we went to starbucks and got a panini for tea yum yum

then on the way home we got chatted up by some builders and they were nottt fitt they were minging!!

then we decided my friend should stay round mine

so we got home after the film and went on the laptop some more, watched run fat boy run and a bit of the notebook

my friend slept in my bed and i was on the blow up matress on the floor which i later discovered we hadnt blown up enough

had no duvet just my cats blanket and a pillow!! i was freezing! i had to put my hoodie, and trousers on over my pj's!!! and i was still cold!!!

then in the morning we cba to make breakfast so we decided to get a breakfast meal at mcdonalds (like the healthy people that we are) but the restaurant was closed and only the drive thru was open, we were gonna try walking thru the drive thru but a random man told us they wouldnt serve us unless we had a car :(

so we walked home again and had a yogurt

her dad came to pick her up and i didnt rlly do anything for the rest of the day

borinnnn'

love ally

xxx

Partayyy

Hey Guys

ok so today was a bit of a flop!

Fist i thought i had work this morning, woke up early (on a saturday!!!) got all the way there

to find out actually the meeting was last saturday and we dont go back till next weekend....

what a waste of my time...... and sleep...

when i got back home i wanted to sleep but we had friends round

my mums friend with her husband and their 5 month old baby

i love kids to bits so i had to stay and play with her

she's so cute and happy!

then when they'd gone it had all been a bit go-go-go!! and i was knackered!!! so i came upstairs

and chillaxed in my room for like agessss on Facebook and Listenin to music nd stuff just sorta gettin away from it all.

By the time i looked at the clock it was already 3:30!!! and i had to be at the party for 6:15 i still had to buy the present and wash my hair, decide what to wear, do my make up, wrap the present and get there!!! i was mega stressed!

On top of all tht! my friend and ex-boyfriend then came out with the fact that he wanted to kill himself!!! which scared the shit outa me!!! and i had to console him for about an hour and by the time he was feelin a little bit better and i was sure he wasnt going to do anything drastic itwas 4:30. i quickly washed my hair, didnt have time to dry it, ran out got the birthday girll some water color pencils, one of those squishy things that when you squeeze it, it make bubble things and a squishy face keyring and then a £10 waterstones voucher! i then ran home by this time my air was mega-frizzy!!! cuz i hadnt blow dried it! but by the time i got home it was already ^!!! and when i checked th trains none of them were working!!!!!! i thought i was so screwed..... till me step dad offered me a lift!!! i quickly rapped the prezzies, brushed my hair (which did nothing!!) had no make up on!!! and looked a total wreck!!! but was hoping my friends wouldnt care and would just be grateful that i was there! which they were so it was all good!

the party was amazing! i had a great time!

got home quite early, about 10 and have been on th comp since.... :)

I think my friends coming around tomorrow i hope so we might go nd see dear john at the cinema which would be awesome :) oh yeah and i also just applied to college, a year i advanse because this college is under such a high demand. i soooo hope i get in!! i love it!!!

ok well im soooo tired but bank holiday monday this week (Y) but ill be spending it doing coursework as usualll..... (N)

love you

ally

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